hey everyone. i've been silent for a couple months(?), and for a good reason. i'm not mentally okay, and feel no motivation whatsoever to do music. i feel so much hatred and want to do unspeakable things to myself but i am a coward thankfully, so i have done no harm to myself physically. i need a break to keep myself somewhat sane.
important thing is- i'll be posting whatever is laying around in my beats folder whenever i feel like it, i don't want this account to die; i started with this one today... i hope y'all like it!
on another note, i have been doing the deco for a geometry dash level that a friend started! it's named "CAPACITANCE" (insane demon), and i am now fixing bugs + finding a verifier. please look forward to the level!
lastly: please seek help whenever you feel like utter trash, or just barely started feeling somewhat down. do not let those nasty thoughts get to you, and keep your head up, even if the storm seems neverending. people care for you, they love you dearly. :)
-itstdx, please take care
BecomeTheFridge
I can't say that everything is sunshine and rainbows--but I will say, from personal experience---feelings of self-loathing to come and go.
This world has a lot of bad people in it, I'm not going to deny that (that would be foolish)--but I firmly think there are enough good people per generation that life is worth living for.
Some burn bright, and live short lives---but some live long lives, and are able to fight the good fight. Both, in my view, are worth looking up to, and emulating---even if I or you are pale emulations of them.
itstdx
i firmly agree with your comment :) at the end it's all worth it, yet it can be really painful at times